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			<p>Day 00994: <time>Saturday, 2017 November 25</time></p>
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		I found myself thinking dangerous thoughts today at work.
		I started thinking that it might not be so bad for my sexuality to go dormant again.
		This version of me isn&apos;t <strong>*too*</strong> terrible to be.
		I can be happy-ish this way.
		I can&apos;t be <strong>*as happy*</strong> though.
		This is throwing my chemical balance off, which is putting me in an emotional start that isn&apos;t as pleasant to be in.
		I can&apos;t settle; I&apos;ve got to figure out how to reawaken my sexuality.
		I&apos;m trying something new, but I&apos;d rather not speak of it here.
		Or at all.
		I&apos;ll see how that works out.
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		A while back, I was fixated on the fact that gay males are often left-handed or ambidextrous, yet I&apos;m not.
		I resent not being ambidextrous; I&apos;m fairly skilled with my left hand because of years of practice with it, but my left hand will never function as well as my right hand; it&apos;ll never function as well as I feel it should.
		I think I&apos;ve figured this out though.
		I&apos;m not a real gay, so that statistic doesn&apos;t even apply to me.
		I&apos;m like, half-gay and half-trans.
		I&apos;m a non-binary male that seeks a male of any gender.
		I&apos;ve heard of no statistic about transwomen and left hand use; it&apos;s only and specifically gay <del>males</del> <ins>men</ins> to which this statistic is even relevant.
		I&apos;m not a man, so my sexuality and my handedness aren&apos;t tied in any known way.
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		I dreamed that I woke up several hours late, and only had fifteen minutes to get ready and make the trip to work.
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		I tried to calm the thing so I could photograph it, but in the end, dream logic prevented the photograph from being possible for some reason.
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